I Cried, Again!

At the office, after having lunch with a boss, we’re talking about the project I’m handling. My boss told me to list all questions that I need to ask to the client. I told him that I am listing them down. The he said that he told me to list the questions down before, but I didn’t.

That made me cry. I was pressured and tired of the finish a whole project. For just 35 days, I finished a whole Payroll System with some reports. I hadn’t had enough time to do more reports, but the system is complete. Database design and creation, analysis and programming and some reports are all done within the said 35 days. The Payroll System is not an ordinary one too that makes it a little hard to analyze. And I had only interviewed the client for 1 f*cking hour. Well, my boss had created a WRONG ANALYSIS after they had interviewed the client. And within those 35 days, another client was asking to change some data from their database.

I told my boss WHILE CRYING that how can I list the questions down if I have no time to list them down, I can’t even eat lunch properly. He’s said that he’s sorry, that the project is kind of tough. Oh no! So he thought it’s the project! I quickly told him that it’s not the project. The other project I’m handling is even tougher. I explained to him that I can’t be working up to 11:00 pm and Sundays. I got a family, I got a son to take care of. I’m a female with obligations to my son. I’m not a male like him, that has no obligations to take care of his children because he’s so tired, and because its his wife who has the obligation to take care of their children even when tired.

I also can’t help myself. I even told him that the 8 hours work, I still need to do some things like go to the CR, drink water, have a little rest. I even don’t consume the lunch break fully. I have lunch for just 15 minutes or less.

I hope he understands. I believe he does. But I hope he won’t tell the other boss that I cried. I that boss finds out, he’ll going to ask me a lot of questions which I’m sure that one of his questions would be “Are you happy working here in the company?”, and then a lot of story telling, which would just eat up my time.

About the project, there are some revisions, and additions, and the reports too. My boss told me to create a time schedule. I didn’t know that this coming Monday is a holiday. After submission of the schedule, they were surprised that the schedule would end up late and there’s no time to create the web program of the system. And they said that Monday is holiday. I heard the other boss is telling the other one “just maximize the time”. They then told me that we can’t add one day on the schedule because the schedule is already late. They even told me to finish the project earlier! How the hell would I finish the project earlier than the schedule I had prepared! The schedule is already based on a rush project.

Am I getting paid right? I don’t know. My salary is PHP 20,000.00 per month, with an additional of PHP 5,000.00 per month since I’m handling a big client of theirs. When that client goes, the incentives would be cut. I can come late or be absent anytime I want. But they had become strict because they hired a new programmer, and I have to be a good model. I still came late everyday, late for half to one hour everyday. But I don’t have absences anymore because of all the work that I have to do. And there are no reasons to be absent for now. I got no bonus of whatsoever. The 13th month is required by the law, so I receive that incentives. I got a free lunch. System analysis, database design, programming and creating reports are my jobs on the company. And before I forgot, I also am the one who answers the phone. The f*cking phone won’t just stops ringing, with nonsense calls from my boss’ ____!!! Sh*t!!! And they are introducing me to clients to have programmers under my supervision. My virtual programmers, where are you!!! For real, it’s really only me. They also say to clients that I don’t know how to create reports!!!

All of these for PHP 25,000.00 a month. Please all, tell me if my salary is good for those. I really have to earn money online. This blog would one day earn from sponsored post. If one day I would need to create 3 more blogs to earn from sponsored posts, I would!!! Right now, I only got one.

I can’t go to Ortigas or Makati for work. I am a mommy now. And there are a lot of factors why I can’t leave my son fully to my husband and mother-in-law. It’s so complicated, so just trust me.

I just wanna cry again.

2 thoughts on “I Cried, Again!”

  1. you are (“f”) right mare :c it’s about time you cried in front of your boss!!! kainis ha they are not paying you right tapos kung makademand ha! Magyayabang pa sa iba na marami silang binabyaran na tao ha!:c
    .-= iceah´s last blog ..He is good =-.

  2. talaga, tiis tiis lang ako kc i need to work. pero kung super pikon na as in totally super duper hindi na kaya, magreresign ako.

    it’s the 2nd time na umiyak ako sa harap ng boss ko

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