I’m wondering… if I went back as an employee, to be a programmer again, can I make it again? I mean, am I a competitive programmer? I hadn’t worked in a company with many programmers. I can’t compare myself to others. I think my analysis is way better than those who are even 5 years older than me. But I can’t compete with those who are about 10 years older than me. Yeah self confidence hahaha. But the real thing is, I want to make it in a big company. I want to have a very competitive salary that matches my skill.
My husband is giving me a hint to go back to work. I then give him a hint my plans if I go back to work. I won’t be able to take care of Ivan. No more of those absences and excuses. There would only be work work work. If I would go back to work, as what’s my husband wanted for me to plan, I would target for a big salary, just like other programmers. I told him of the consequences. He answered and said so be it. I’m thinking, he doesn’t know what he’s talking about, he would say that I don’t have conscience because I’m not able to attend on Ivan’s feelings.
I don’t want to go back to work. I would try something so I won’t need to go back to work.