I had ignored my blogs so much, too long that I missed my blogs everyday. And now that I had some time (I really do not have extra time), I am writing this as a sorry note directly to my blogs.
If my blogs can only speak, I guess it would just shout in front of my face for ignoring them too long. Maybe I would also get a slap on the face from each of my blogs. I can actually imagine it. I am imagining it now.
I can not make a pledge to be loyal to my blogs anymore. In my heart, I do not want to ignore my blogs. But I guess things had gotten out of control, but in a good way.
There are good things happening in my life. There are different challenges coming. But I am learning a lot of things and is looking forward for a better future, mentally and financially.
More about this soon.
It would be almost welcome 2014. I am hoping for a new me. I am hoping for the best that I can be.
What is more important, career or family? My answer is still family. Yes I know, I need to provide money for my family. That’s why I hired two maids that can help me with all the household chores and take care of my two kids. And yes, I have a career to cope up with the needs of my family.
For the past 7 years, I forgot myself. I know I need to recover. That’s why just this month, I tried to buy new clothes for myself. I tried to look good. So I guess that’s why there are other guys that are interested on me 🙂 That’s cool! That means I am still lovable in spite of my age. I am 34 years old this year.
I’ll value myself too. And I would hopefully save money for myself
New me on year 2014.
In the afternoon when my mother-in-law is away, when I have some time to breathe, when it’s breastfeeding time, I do watch Tagalog movies on PBO (Philippine Box Office) on the TV cable channel. But of course, only when the film appeals me.
My husband asked me why I’m watching such Tagalog comedy films. I told him that watching Tagalog comedy films wears off my loneliness and stress. I’m easily laugh watching Tagalog movies like Praybeyt Benjamin, Ang Tanging Ina, Moron 5 The Crying Lady, and comedy films like those.
Cheesy? Why, because it’s a Tagalog film? If you’re a Filipino, then you don’t have the right to tell me that I’m “baduy”. If you’re a Filipino and you don’t watch Tagalog films even those serious ones, then maybe you hate your own hero Dr. Jose Rizal who once noted, “Ang hindi magmahal sa kanyang salita, mahigit pa sa hayop at malansang isda.” (Those who don’t love their own language, is worse than an animal and stench fish.” Well, sorry, I don’t think I had translated the sayings right 🙂 I’m not really that good in English.
I got a problem with time management. And now that I got a baby, I am having a hard time looking for a time to take a bath! And that’s not all. My own clothes are piling up! I might not have clothes to wear if I don’t wash my clothes after a week.
I still need to consider blogging. And I should attend my online shop of course. And my baby is my first priority. My last priority is myself.
Now, where the heck would I find time to take a bath!
I gave birth on October 26, 2012 through cesarean operation to a baby girl. Now, I need to eat, drink and take care of my baby. I also started to accept orders. Although I’m full force now on my online shop, my husband helps me with the buyer payment, and sending bulk orders. My husband also checks and counts the boxes to be sent.
I still take Flanax 275 mg, 2 times a day. My body, especially my arms, hands and feet feels pain. I think I need a massage of some sort. I also feel a little pain inside my tummy (just on one side). Weird but I better ask my OB about it when I go back for a check up. Hopefully, it’s a normal situation.
On September 14, 2008 lunch time, we attended our association’s celebration for the Mooncake Festival. There is a raffle. We bought 6 raffle tickets each worth 200 Pesos. So that’s 1,200 Pesos all in all. Then luckily, two of our tickets were picked at the tiambolo. We got 500 Pesos and the other one is 1,000 Pesos. Yeheyyyyyyyy!!!
People might think we did “magic” because my husband is the one assisting on the tiambolo. The one who won the first prize which is worth 10,000 Pesos is a rich guy. So he said he would just donate the money to the association.
Tsk! We are aiming for the first prize. But it was fun! And it’s the first time that we bring our little Ivan to a party. I was so happy when I saw my little son smiling and laughing with other people.
Have you been offered something that you had thought it might be a good trade but is so afraid of the consequences? I was offered… indecent proposals… total of 4. Every time I was offered, I was thinking, what’s with me?
I wonder if indecent proposals (s*xual) is normal. I won’t talk much about the offers. But some of the offers are great! There is money and/or trips involved. I was thinking before that it’s a good trade, that everybody is happy.
In the end, I didn’t accept any of those offers. I am so afraid that it might affect my future. I am talking about being seen in YouTube having a s*x scandal video!!!
So thank God I have not accepted the offers. I was fighting myself, questioning myself, and telling myself why should I not accept the offer, and why I should think over it first before saying no. But in the end, I say no.
We’re still friends, or online buddies. We still chat if there are times that both of us are not too busy. We exchange “hi” and “how’s life going” greetings.
Have you been offered an indecent proposal before?
The lady my ex-boss was talking about… about how good she is, about why she needs to resign because of the company treatment, about her salary compare to mine… well they just hired her! But she leaves them too because she is pregnant for her 2nd baby.
How good she is? I really don’t know. What I know is that her experience in programming and analysis is not deep. I think that’s why they “he” say that she’s good, because he always has a wrong analysis towards client business systems.
I’m not jealous. It was just funny that how they treat their other teams so good, with a good starting salary (not only her but with other newly hired programmers too). I guess they found my weak point… to work in a place near my house. They got me there, but not almost.
I’m wondering… if I went back as an employee, to be a programmer again, can I make it again? I mean, am I a competitive programmer? I hadn’t worked in a company with many programmers. I can’t compare myself to others. I think my analysis is way better than those who are even 5 years older than me. But I can’t compete with those who are about 10 years older than me. Yeah self confidence hahaha. But the real thing is, I want to make it in a big company. I want to have a very competitive salary that matches my skill.
My husband is giving me a hint to go back to work. I then give him a hint my plans if I go back to work. I won’t be able to take care of Ivan. No more of those absences and excuses. There would only be work work work. If I would go back to work, as what’s my husband wanted for me to plan, I would target for a big salary, just like other programmers. I told him of the consequences. He answered and said so be it. I’m thinking, he doesn’t know what he’s talking about, he would say that I don’t have conscience because I’m not able to attend on Ivan’s feelings.
I don’t want to go back to work. I would try something so I won’t need to go back to work.
My mother-in-law is coming back. Should I look for a job?
Right now, I and two of my sisters are thinking of a business that can help us get some extra money. As of now, I’m the one researching on the stuff because my two sisters are busy with their work. I’m busy with my baby and blogging. But if I want to pursue on this business, I should do the research. It’s the only way we can try it out.
My mother-in-law also knows about it. And she’s hoping my sisters and I can start the business. I don’t want to tell her yet about it. I’m still on the research. My husband got excited hahaha but that’s okay with me.
If she’ll be staying here for long and for good, then I can manage the business. It would be only the start of our money making.
I’m still waiting for some products and CDs from my husband’s friend. That’s another business that would turn out good if the Philippine consumer would consider its price. I hope.
Although I still remember and I know that I can still be a good programmer, I am not hoping to go back to a job wherein I can’t manage my online shop, can’t help and prepare for the business, and can’t attend on my son.